It's not the storm before the calm

There is a certain majesty to uncertainty. Having a future and no clear cut path to get there can be exciting and nerve racking. On some level we want to know how it's all going to go. However, walking down an unmarked road can be a wonderful experience.

For me the summer was like this for a while. Now I know for the most part what is going to happen, where I'll be and what I'll be doing.

Though it's nice to finally have that figured out, it seems most of my life is still up in there air. Next year will bring a variety of new challenges and hardships. The glamourous part being that I have no idea what any of them will be. I just pray for the strength to move through them to the next bridge.

Saying less

Tim noticed a lack of activity in our blogs. Rhymes had a note about it. I've noticed too. We haven't been updating. Who knows why. The semester winds down and we all get busy.

I tried to come up with a way to say it but I think Bryan does it better:

"It's tough to blog when there's no real self-realizations happening."

I'll agree with the sentiment here. So much is occurring and swirling around that it's difficult to grab hold of any one thing right now. For me the summer is still uncertain. The end of the semester is extremely near, as close as 48 hours away.

My prayer is that when school starts again next semester, I'll still feel this way. That the notion that I have friends who care is still there. The feeling I get when I look into her eyes. How I know she feels about me.

If nothing else, spring of 2009 has made me more appreciative of it all.

Fully Alive

As the semester draws to a close I can't help but be thrilled, and saddened.

This semester has been full of experiences. Biz Block has tested my patience and time management skills. McConnell has taught me countless things about life and responsibility. Lys has shown me that even the strongest of people can falter on occasion.

Moving to a new hall and new staff will test me once again. Being away from Katie for the better part of three months will not be easy. Having a successful summer is still up in the air.

I've never been one to dwell on my past or regret my mistakes. This year has shown me that who I am, is who I want to be. It just took the right people surrounding me to see it.

Stay

Come on get higher/loosen my lips

faith and desire and the swing of your hips

Lately all I've done is school work. Constantly busy, always going. All I really want is to sit and relax. To simply do nothing.

But most of all I want is to hold you. Every hour of every day.

I miss the sound of your voice

the loudest thing in my head